.Sunday, September 23, 2007 ' Sunday, September 23, 2007
HAPPY BDAE JAZREEL !!im so a foul mood. real bad. i dont know what had gone into my head that got me so moody. im getting so temperamental nowadays. i get very unhappy over minor things which i shouldnt.
i tried to refrain but instead it got worse.
and i realised, ive been flinging my frcuking attitude to my friends, when they gave me a call or sms.
i wanted so much to apologize here.
i really at a loss. i dont know what happened to me. i dont like what im doing now, but it just seems beyond me... someone change me pls?
i dont know who are you to me. i dont know do i still care . i dont know if i still love you or not. you just seems to appear in my mind evry now and then and that it made me feel worse than anything else.. i wanted someone so much to talk to but it seems that no one will ever understand. the advice given are always the same. somehow, its easy for someone who never know to speak. its everytime the same. what comes around goes around.
i know that seriously all this got to stop and that i must really concentrate in my studies for upcoming N. and im trying so hard. and still, not abling to study for this week. im only left with 1 week time. i wanted so much to study. anyone wanna study with me? tsk*
stop all those that distracts me. its tiring. i wanna study. i wanna be as cheerful as before. im trying so hard to search back the optimisstic me.
its hard but im trying....just got home from tiong bahru with mother. went jp in the morning and trained to batok to get my hp line things done. and trained tb for steamboat dinner and durian treat. cabbed home.
yesterday went bugis with vivian. bought 2 dress. and seriously, im broke.
friday, celebrate jaz bdae. unpleasant things in the afternoon,. don wish to talked about it. pooled, kfc, arcade and then home at around 10+. reached home 12+ and do online shopping.
and this life need to stop.
studying is what i should and must be doing.Labels: if only i can control...
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