.Tuesday, July 3, 2007 ' Tuesday, July 03, 2007
really no words of describing how i started my day today. a lil unlucky. or rather very?
met up with ling and shan early in the morning to had our breakfast and then met sujuan at her hse and cab-bed to school.
after the flag raising, got called by ms buganeish. well..same reason, for my " long " skirt.
unhappy la and so standing not straight and when she asked a question like " understand?" then she expect me to say " yes ms buganeish " instead of yes or ya. =.=
and so played along with her, every lil things den i will " yes ms buganeish "
lmao .
and so tomorrow i got to wear my longer skirt. which is seriously LONG la. siian 1/2.
its already the second week of school and i will still found myself sleeping during lesson times. today was in chinese lesson. was even drooling . =.=/
and after school and everything , went to slack around queenstown area and then train-ed home. was not feeling well.. whole body was like burning hot.
perharps its those things about DEVIL that asshole. well.. alot of things and so shall not elaborate more otherwise i will go berserk. its all about $$. forget about him la. let him just live his life pathetically :D
today im still realising that i need him so much here for me. to be my pillar. today i almost fell and how i wish that there's a pillar here for me to lean on. a strong one that can be there for me. but....well im speechless*
he's still nowhere to be seen nor heard.
maybe im thinking too much or what, ever since i saw him in my dreams that night, i just looking forward to see him again. id no idea why il have this kinda of thinking.
im beginning to felt that my life is getting boring and less meaningful without him.
maybe because alot of things begins with him.
because of him , i learned how to love, and be loved.
because of him , i gave up things and earned things. not those big prize or what, its something that cant be bought using money. it cannot be calculated in monetary terms.
every lil things that we had, happy or sad make out the relationship we had. although now we are seprated but im sure that my soul is there with him and il stand by him no matter what. no one had ever have this kinda feelings before. its a feelings so rare and special. just like him. someone that dont come by so easily. someone who is never so special as compared to him.
IVAN. is the one that i would want. x3
anyone that's in contact with ivan, please help me tell him that id really failed as a gf that time and now, id learned to be a wonderful gf lurhs. what i want now is only HIM to be back.
getting back together or not is not the biggest thing. its his safety and well-being that matters! :)i love ivan. Y我为你许下的承诺是永远不会改变的。你是我一辈子的最爱。对你的爱不是说要放就能放的，也不是要忘就能忘得！shuyu Y ivan !
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