.Saturday, June 23, 2007 ' Saturday, June 23, 2007
suddenly i felt so lost. seeing you having a girlfriend who made you so happy . seeing you showing put how much you would want to change and care for her. seriously somehow im green with envy. a lil of jealousy? i used to have the happiness that she's having now,the life she's experiencing now. and now, whatever she got, i lost them all! but i don blame or hate anyone. maybe its just that we are not meant to be.
last night when im switching off my com, i could felt the breeze outside the window. the fresh air of 2+3am. its so cooling and the air was like clean. suddenly, my mind was like being brought back to the day when im at east coast park with you. the place, the time we both fell in love at first sight. the first guy who brought me to the beach where hundreds of stars can be seen. throughout the whole patch of sky. every star that resembles a diamond. shining and bling-ing.
the feeling of your hand over my waist, the feeling when im being put into your embrace. the warm kisses on my lip. but time did not stopped at that point of time. now that we have broken up, we would never go back to that time anymore. i know that sending you away is my regret. im just being materialistic. i thought that feelings and actions that are being showed out is LOVE. while now its like an act. your love for me is genuine. you did not showed them all out but did somethings that benefit me behind my back is what i should called love. you cared and loved me so much. you want me to be happy. you don care about yourself. you put me infront of almost everything. and now, i just let you go and never can i get you back anymore. but boy, throughout the days when im with you,my feelings for you was real. i did love you before.and im really sorry for hurting you. i can never repay them back to you in my whole life. lil things that you do really melts my heart even till today, im still remember that :D
its late now and im meeting vivian jiie tomorrow @ 2pm. we are going Bugis. weets x3
nights people ~
ya and ive change my blogskin and tagboard. because i don like having exactly the same thing with her. =x
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