.Thursday, May 24, 2007 ' Thursday, May 24, 2007
im back to post my blog about yesterday about today.
erm.. how to start ? hmm.. all right. shall start it this way then (:OK.. this time round, i initiated for a break-up.cause i went to his friendster and i saw all my comments for him are gone. not even one left. and its obvious that i don mean anything to him at all. so why should i still cling onto him when he don give a damn for me.
sms-ed him and initiated a breakup. left a long comment for a breakup.
if i said that im nt sad, u guys believe? actually since the day he showed me cold shoulders and when we both had cold wars with one another, i know that this day will surely come. its onli matters about fast or slow. and im right . this day had finally came. and he and i are through.
we had nothing to do with each other already. i did try to hold onto him and drag this day longer. hoping that maybe a miracle can descend and do the situation a big change. but.. its only what i wished. its never gonna be anymore.
i thought that im gonna cry my tears that gonna flood the universe.. but till now, few hours had passed and not a single drop of tears had fallen. im strong?!? lols.. i suppose i am.
there's always a saying :: NO POINT CRYING OVER SPILLED MILK. :: true yeah? ((:
i don owe him any reason or any explanation. about a week ago, he want me to stay by him again saying that he realised his moments of folly. and he will not be like how he used to be before. i broke the ice and trusted him yet, he DID NOT change. and disappointment gotten over me in the end. < shuyu / raynard 3 ;
LOVES NT MINE @ 230507i was so fed-up when i saw his friendster shout-out saying : " how i wish a ger can willing to pei me and not i go pei her norhs. who can it be...? " and " im treasuring whatever i have now! "
firstly, when im willing to accompany him, he keep telling me that he's not free and used so many reasons that keep me away. secondly, he don have the right to say that he's treasuring whatever he have now as he treasure nothing. he dont treasure anything at all. he takes everything for granted. and yet he have the cheek to make it sounds so pathetic. initially i thought that he's pitiful but now it makes me feel rather pathetic. its so not real. so fake! now that we are through, we had nothing to talk about anymore. and im all right.. perfectly fine. he had proven to me alot of things. a saying ::
what is love? :::
love is giving HIM the ability to destroy you and trusting HIM not to do that. & he had destroyed me. my trust. my love.i stayed faithful to him and not to do those kinda adultery affairs behind him but, what did i get back? ive no evidence if he had been doin those things behind my back or nt. but just my sixth sense ( that can be true =x) telling me that, he's not behaving himself when being with me. but i did something that is right. at least i meant to stay faithful and i did that ! (:
this time broken up got me even stronger. i had never dropped a drop of tear all right? strong yea (:
but of course i do have my weakness laaarhss...
im trying not to be so soft-hearted. not acting too impulsively. and stand to my expectations. [:
omg.. tomorrow's meet the parent session. my form teacher will sure said alot of things about me. both true and untrue. lols..
shall see how im gonna survive tomorrow then. ((:
during ss lesson, went to smoke. they just smoke at the corridor corner ok? we are so poor thing . 5 of us shared a sticks. lols.. john and mustafa took the most puff larhs.
but its all right. this type of thing nothing to be calculative about.
okok.. see if i can blog later or not. going out to meet jialing lurhs. (:
bye readers.. cya then [: tkcare
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